The agony and the ecstasy....

And...When I think about it, lots of things buzz around my mind. I find myself captivated by Confusion(which is a sin for me!). What is Success? I ask myself in this utter state of bewilderment. Is it triumph of Talent, luck, money, career over relationships, friendships of years? Or is it simply grabbing the best salary package that would give us wings to fly and rush to shop all the Nikes and Benettons! Well....I am still a bit foggy about what is success all about. We all crave for success, we all wish the best, we all wish to fulfill a dream...And so we all are to become something someday. Everything is fare. Afterall it is one precious life we have. Each minute is important and Career is everything.
BUT....Today, my heart and eyes could see things beyond the demarcated boundaries of my own innocence. My heart sinks at the reality which is not bitter but too heavy to digest. This beautiful world is too scary.....And this leads me to think that...More than a healthy competition the picture I can frame is only of an ugly sight...Where people audaciously kill relationships, old friendhips...They willingly choose hell and leave heaven....The purity, love, intimacy....All are abducted by the fierce cruelty and selfish interests.....To fill their piggy banks, to rise in ones life....Majority of crowd let go the precious bonds....And we should care less...afterall emotions and sentiments are all gibberish....
And I find my self in argument with my mind.....I can still hear the buzz....The sounds are not clear...Confusion hangs on....And now my heart tells me to stay away, far away from this dirty world...Just surround yourself with ones who love you...Who give you happiness and don't worry about success...With internal happiness no success can be far from you....
So I am blind to the rest of the world.....For me....Relationships triumph over everything....And I am happy is all that matters.....