ANGER - IT'S KILLIngg

"In sheer state of exasperation I screamed at her. That very moment became a reason for my embarrassment later....I feel guilty for being so ruthless, so harsh...but I hold culpable my "Anger" which brought anguish. Snatched away my peace, defeated the poised state of my mind and heart."



Why do I get Angry? For this one question there are several answers and reasons but no solution and of course no absconding from it too. During that short span of time, I lost all self control... clutched my fists, closed my beaming red eyes tightly, and bellowed on my poor victim "TO LEAVE, LEAVE ME ALL ALONE". I shivered, felt trapped in its horrifying web. I knew, knew it perfectly that I was doing injustice to myself, still my ego refused to surrender and leave anger. As a Hapless creature, I could just take help of tears that flowed profusely. My only wish was to lock myself in a room. I yearned for loneliness. Acting as the most selfish human being on earth, I could see; cruelty overshadowed my sentiments. Possessed with a thought of "WHO CARES", I forced myself to run away from every one and ignore all the voices of my loved ones requesting me to come back in my senses. How much I wished to, only I know.



But, anger is bad, its a sweet enemy that gets hold of you even before you realize and then transforms you into something you don't ever want to become, making you a stranger in your eyes that you end up asking yourself "IS THIS ME??" Once, Just once let this Anger touch you and it will lead to conflagration of you as an individual. It will lead you to act in an insane manner, fill you with hatred and make you evil.



After the phase passed. The very next moment I was thinking about the dreaded past which was full of Anger. I began to analyse my state, that state of exasperation when it all started. But, could find no reasonable answers as to why I behaved in such a shameful way. Yesterday My anger just showed me destruction, empty of any hope, and today as I have overcome, I feel disgraced. Pity myself why did I ever get angry? What made me Angry? What on earth made me so irresponsible, indifferent towards my own mind, body and heart, that I trampled all good feelings, thoughts....and was carried away by Anger so easily. I regret not that I got angry, but the fact I was unable to control it, get rid of it.