August...the sky breaks into a passionate rain. A tear rolled down her cheeks as she blinked. The thunder, dark clouds reflected the inherent anguish that resided deep within her heart. The wind bruised against her ears. The drops of rain made a tapping sound as they fell on the rough long steps that led to the Church. Her body was drenched and she shivered.
She stood still...staring at the open windows of the Santa Maria Church. The beautiful memories haunted her. They met at the Dome of this memorable Church. White like a Dove, the huge Church appeared a symbol of their love, the purity, the happiness and serenity. Serenity, it had left her long before. Since he departed, her heart fell prey to pain and sadness. The first time she had ever undergone such powerful emotions was the day when she fell in love and today when she cursed herself for loving someone ever.
A deep regret. A silent moan. The voices screamed within her. The heavy downpour, the month of August...took her back to the journey of suffering. The drops of rain, it seemed were beautiful for someone and depressing for some at the same time, she thought, as she spotted a young girl smiling and dancing on the streets, singing cheerful songs.
The words she murmured to herself were :
" I don't know if I can ever fall in love ever again,
Even if I do, my heart assures me, it will never be same again"
She cried profusely as she spoke these lines. The rain water washed her face. Her red eyes reflected that she so desperately wished to be alone. All alone.
She thought,
"Trust is non-negotiable,
Either it is there or it is not"
The most precious possession to her was true love. All has been in vain, since the moment she had been deceived. Perplexed about present, she was unsure about where life would take her next. Was she prepared? Only time could heal. She pleaded to herself.
There seems to be a power, someone up there who knows it all, she believed, as she felt the wind and listened to soft rustling sound of the wet leaves of a huge pee pal tree.
The patterns of life are indeed revealed to us bit by bit. She knew well....
August....when the sky breaks into a passionate rain....it took away all sanity and filled her mind with the fondest of memories that only turned more bitter with time. "Alas", she mocked at herself, yet again :
" Only if I knew why my love was denied to me,
Only, for once If some one could answer me....
what best reason is hidden behind it?
I will stop asking god ; "Why me"??
It is true, you can feel the pain of your loved ones. After this incident with my friend, I went over the suffering again. Few 'whys' that disturbs me are, Trust is broken, emotions are taken for granted, no loyalty exists. Love is indeed a four letter words, but a feeling that all humans and animals equally crave for, wish for. But, when it is deceived, it hurts the most.....
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